So Begins a New Year

With the start of the new year, I'd like to say that I have a bunch of resolutions to start the year fresh, but I don't think that I really do. I have yet to actually make a solid resolution that I kept. And that is mostly due to the fact that I haven't really made many actual new year's resolutions. I'd like to say that this year will be the year that I do something big and amazing with my life, but only time will tell. I'll just be happy to successfully raise Alex and Abby to be another year happier and healthier.

This year is different from the previous few because of two things. First, I have zero cribs in the house. So that makes it official that I don't have anymore babies in the house. Second, we have no sense of job security with Josh, which is always a cause for my constant supply of Tums. But we have the hope that things will only get better from here on out.

For a first time in awhile, I had the joy of ringing in the New Year alone. Well, maybe 'alone' isn't the most accurate word. But it's pretty darn close. Josh's job has taken him away from us for awhile now. He's been home everyone once in awhile for laundry and Christmas day, but overall not long enough. I actually feel very bad for him. The job is taking a toll on him. He has zero personal time anymore and has been living out of a suitcase. He actually hasn't played his World of Warcraft for going on a month now. That may not seem like a big deal for most, but it's a fairly good indicator as to what his life has become. The kids miss him dearly and are constantly asking where he is or when he is coming home. I see how tired and exhausted he is and how frustrated he is with his job and my heart goes out to him. He's definitely not the same Josh that I am used to. He even got sick this past week with a cold and can't seem to shake it because his immune system is drained. And please note that he is never sick. The job that he has, has inhuman hours and schedules and he's trapped there due to Union rules. So needless to say, he's working today (New Year's Day) and I rang in the new year by myself on the couch watching Transformers 2. It wasn't a bad night, but the entire time I kept thinking about Josh waking up at 4:30 in the morning and leaving us again. So our hope for the new year is that Josh will get a better job at some point in time with decent hours that don't require he transform into a robot to survive. (I also wouldn't mind moving into a new house with more room sometime, but hey...one hope at a time, right?) It was a tough year last year, but we came through with heads held high. So here's hoping for 2010. To all you and yours, I hope that your new year is full of wonderful things!