The Anniversary You Shouldn't Celebrate

Well. It's official. We've celebrated our one year anniversary of the day that Josh's job situation went spiraling madly downhill on a way one course for the bottom. Did we really celebrate such an occasion, you ask? No. Sheesh. What kind of people do you think we are? It did hit us the other day that it was one year ago when he got the first dreaded pink slip. Sometimes, we look back on that day and wonder what really happened. Was it honestly a 'lack of work' situation or was there something else underlying that his ex-boss wasn't willing to talk about? Naturally, we'll never know. But that fateful day was the start of a really rough year. At times it felt like we were barely clinging on to the edge of a slippery bridge and hoping not to fall into the crocodile infested waters. Other times, it felt like things weren't all that bad. Of course, there were also the times where we just threw our hands up in the air and said, "Eh. Whatever." Looking back on that day, I remember having a core meltdown. I thought it was literally the end of life as we knew it. The second lay off was a bit easier on my emotional state. By the time we got the most recent (fourth, I believe) pink slip, I realized that I have a complete lack of emotional reaction. I call it emotional Novocaine. Either I've learned to cope with the continuous unknown path of our life, or I've become numb to the 'bad news'. Either way, we're managing one day at a time. I don't blog about this very often. Seriously, who wants to read about someone's woes every single day? I know I sure don't. But this is the one major thing going on in our lives. As this blog is meant as a sort of record of our family and the ups and downs life has for us, I might as well keep it real once in a while. Ya can't have marshmallow fluff and butterfly days 365 days out of the year. But, as is said often, God won't give you more than you can handle. We're just running with that phrase for the time being. As of now though, Josh has reached his one month of unemployment mark and we're hopeful that a job is around the corner. Again. We're considering our options with kissin' the ol' Union good bye right now, but that could be a painful split. So here's hopin' we won't be 'celebrating' our second year anniversary one year from now.