A New Year

It's a new year and I'm ready to take it all in. I'd really like to manage making writing a bigger part of it than last year. I have a lot of things to write and a lot of things on my "need to accomplish" list. Along with those accomplishments, I'm hoping for a mental overhaul as well. I'd love to say that I'm making my list of New Year's resolutions, but that's just not so. I'd like to think of it as more of a new life's resolution. A bit much? Probably. But I'd love to hit the New Year ground running with a fun sense of optimism. "Who is this strange lady and what have you done with Jessica?" you ask? Rightly so. I have been told I'm a glass is half empty kind of gal. When someone says that to me, I say, "Well, no. I'm more of glass is half full of shards of other glasses kind of gal." I'm not saying that I'm going for a total life overhaul, but I'm definitely going to give it a go. Tell me if you see it working. I'd love to know.

So to start off, I'm going to accept something that is hard for my slightly OCD brain to accept. I can't play blog catch up. My biggest problem with blogging is that I have a clogged brain. So many things have happened that my brain tells me I need to catch up on the blog with everything. I can't, no matter how hard I try, manage to get it all typed up and saved. It was a crazy year. And with that craziness, lots of things got back-burnered. Part of the reason I can't manage to blog is because I sit down and open up the page and try to figure out where to start. Before I can type a paragraph, I get overwhelmed and discouraged and ultimately close it. So I'm wiping it clean. No. I'm not deleting the blog. I'm just pretending like the last year is skipped. I got a few key moments up (e.g. birthdays and holidays) But, I didn't catch up. Now I need to tell myself it's ok and move on. You have no idea how difficult that is. It's like writing a giant "to-do list" and then tearing it up after only crossing off two things. Ugh.

Click, click. Skip.

Done.

Here's to a new year and a shot at happy. Happy New Year everyone!